Lean On

Captain's bLog, Quarantine Edition:Week 1.

Soooo... have days always had this many hours in them?

Not complaining or anything, it just seems they've gone a bit leggy since we started quarantine. The closets are organized, the house is spotless, and I've been cooking up an absolute storm, but if the days keep on being this goddamn long I'm going to have to start facing down the scary household projects that I've been shirking for... well, forever. So far I've been able to fend off the looming guilt-projects by never stopping moving, but as the days stretch out ahead of me it seems I may not be able to keep up my marathon hand-waving busy-dance indefinitely. At some point I'm going to have to put down my spatula and delve into the dark side of things: Updating my will. Facing the fact that I have not had time for art or crafts for years, yet have still somehow been accumulating supplies that are now beckoning me from their Rubbermaid purgatory. Gawd forbid, organizing the basement.

And so much more.

How many times in my life have I wished for more hours in the day? Well, now here they are, all in a big-ass row and staring me down expectantly. You called? Uh, yeah, sortof, but where were you needy bastards when I was attending university with a toddler? When I was working 60+ hours a week with two kids at home? Heck, even during the good times when I would have loved to linger over a conversation or a sunset or a much-needed vacation, but couldn't? It's not fair for you all to show up now that I have my shit (more or less) together and expect to be attended to in a meaningful way!

So, fuck it: I am officially leaning in - to leaning out. Eat that, Sheryl Sandberg. (Or at least eat some of this mountain of goodies I've baked? Please?) I'm going with the flow of board games and backlogged magazine subscriptions that have been defining my days lately. Maybe I'll get dressed, maybe I'll wear pyjamas, but I am damn well not going to work out either way.

If I get around to the basement, that's cool; if not, meh. After all, if the epidemiologists have it right, I'll get another stab at forced free time again sometime in my life.

And the basement will always be there, but this new cake recipe is not gonna bake itself.