Mnemorize

DH found a new plant in our garden this week, and although he figured it seemed weedy, he left it in to see if I knew what it was. As soon as I saw it, I knew exactly... that I had walked through a huge, prickly field of it with my field partner and friend - let's call her Long Tall Sally - on an overcast day in July 2015.

Could I remember something useful about the plant, like, say, its name? Nope, I spent five minutes dredging the depths to retrieve that, and even then I could only remember the scientific name and had to Google the English term to tell DH. But the colourful autobiographical memory - no trouble retrieving that! I have this problem all the time: 'Oooh, I remember keying this plant in a wetland in 2007! I was with so-and-so, and we found a duck nest with seven eggs!' But can I just pretty please remember the damn word for the plant? Buy a vowel, hum a bar, anything?

No.

It's as if my brain makes mnemonics even when I am not trying to make mnemonics, but regularly forgets what it was I was trying to remember in the first place. I'm going to name this mnemorizing, and it makes me mnental. It probably takes up ten times the brain space that a direct line to the information would, and lawd knows I could use that extra room on the ol' meat drive. If you've ever felt that I talk too damn much to say anything, then please understand it's honestly just how I'm wired: the train has to pop by all the stations, there is no least-cost routing, and we may make some unplanned side trips along the way. Whee!

Now that I've had this experience with the plant in the garden with DH in 2020 as well as in a field with LTSally in 2015, the next time I need to recall this species I guarantee it will have double the useless memories associated with it - maybe triple, since I'm writing about it here as well. Heaven forbid some poor soul accidentally asks me what it is in future, 'cause they are going to get an absolute earful of unrelated nonsense.

I've heard that brain fluidity decreases with age so maybe I'll get my routes all straightened out eventually. But in the meantime, just for the record:

Hello, future me. It's Galeopsis tetrahit, you high-functioning Hufflepuff. I cannot (but also 100% can) believe it was easier for you to look this up on your blog than it was to just fricking remember those words. So disappointed in you me us.

In Like a (Hel)Lion

I have an irrational fear of getting caught in a bear trap. I suppose the fear of bear traps is fairly rational, but the low likelihood of my getting stuck in one is what makes it a bit silly. Regardless, whenever I'm wandering through the forest I always task a spare neuron or two with watching out for traps.

Now just imagine the ruckus a person would make if they caught a leg in a bear trap, and you will have come to understand the amount of fuss Small Fry makes about any given injury: a stubbed toe, for instance, or a neck twinge. He is a massive drama queen. Which you expect to an extent with a toddler, but this kid is twelve years old so at this point I've had approximately ten years too many of his theatrics. Yesterday afternoon he bumped his funny bone and started carrying on in a manner that I feel should be strictly reserved for life-threatening injuries, e.g., getting one's leg caught in a bear trap. Which I told him, and had told him for the previous night's neck twinge drama, and the previous day's whatever drama, and so on and so forth back through the ages. Naturally, he is Officially Butthurt by my largely unsympathetic responses to all the bumped elbows/twinged necks/bad haircuts/etc. that life so often serves up, much as any drama queen worth her/his salt would be expected to be. (I ignore that, too.)

Compare this to Medium Fry, who in retrospect was an incredibly stoic child. She quite peacefully suffered migraines her entire life, damn near cut her Achilles tendon in a bike accident and tried to fix it herself with a band-aid, and suffered menstrual cramps for years without a peep - to the point that I didn't know she experienced them at all. (Needless to say, she was pleased to learn that ibuprofen helps.) Also in retrospect, she was a champion sleeper as a baby, an utter camel when it came to potty training, and a natural-born quiet self-entertainer as a toddler and youngster. Whatever the opposite is of drama queen (Job comes to mind), she is that.

I know, I know - you're not supposed to compare your children. But the respective levels of drama I've gotten out of the two of them honestly begs comparison. I didn't even notice how easy Medium Fry was until Small Fry came along like a... I don't even know what, a very whiny and sleepless hurricane maybe? I say hurricane to be kind - I'm pretty sure he was actually possessed by demons as an infant, and still there are days I'm not convinced we managed to evict them all.

In all likelihood I chalked Medium Fry's myriad successes up to my ah-mazing parenting, when in reality it was just her own peaceable nature shining through. But that, as I now warn all new parents who have "easy" babies, is how they trick you into providing them with younger siblings. Small Fry was crystal clear right from the start that he wanted to be the centre of the universe, forever, and after only six weeks of his demonic existence ex utero, DH obliged by silently walking out the door one day... and coming home with a vasectomy. Under the circumstances I'm glad he came back at all, but Small Fry's er, exit, was also pretty demonic and I wasn't quite ready to relinquish my bag of frozen peas just yet, y'know?

We left Medium Fry to hold down the fort for seven months while the rest of us travelled around Europe this past winter. It wasn't quite "Mom clean" when we got back, but the plants were still alive and things were mostly in order so I'd call the whole adulting experiment a success. Compare this to the other day when DH and I attended an afternoon barbeque, and after only a couple of hours I started getting texts from neighbourhood parents, plural, about the sleepover party Small Fry was apparently planning in our absence. Why yes, what a grand idea - just bring your sleeping bag and your coronavirus when you come! Again: practically begs comparison, don't you think? So there went any foolish notions DH and I ever harboured of leaving Small Fry to take care of the house some day - he's already planning parties the moment we walk out the door, and he's only twelve!

I think I've been secretly clinging to that old saying about March coming in like a lion but going out like a lamb - perhaps my little early-March lion would grow up a bit more lamb-ish himself? Seems time to disabuse myself of that notion as well. After twelve years of very consistent messaging on Small Fry's part, it's high time I realised I'll probably always have to have at least a couple of spare neurons assigned to the task of watching out for his antics.